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You Are My Obsession
Today’s Ugly Truth: I am obsessed. This one is a little scary. Not for me, but probably for you. This morning I read THIS article. What? Really? Now I have to add stocker to my borderline symptoms? I hate this, but the truth is in several past relationships this has been the case. I do…
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Knowledge = Responsibility
Years ago I had this lesson. I was told knowledge equals responsibility. You don’t need to act on knowledge, but at the point of receiving it you now have a choice. You can no longer plead ignorance. A few prevalent example are counselors or clergy. I can confess things that have happened, and they are…
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STOP
The last few weeks I’ve been reading a lot about borderline personality disorder. Most of the articles talk about how hard we are to deal with, and how we hurt the people we love often. Now that I understand why… how do I fix it? I sincerely have no idea how to proceed. Since the…
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This Could be Heavy #2.5
I updated this today 4\14\21. I am reposting this song (Weight of a Man) because I meant it. Joining me for this journey is not easy. This week I have been afraid, sad, manic, euphoric, dangerous, honest… I have discovered some really hard truths about myself and gained more understanding about Borderline Personality Disorder. I…
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10 minutes too late…
This may really hurt… This may answer some questions. This may end some of my relationships… I honestly don’t know. What I do know, is this cannot coninue. Have you ever realized something about yourself that is disgusting? Something you would never have patience with if somebody else was doing it? Im a liar. This…
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I just got punched… Thank God
First I want to clarify after researching that lifeguards do not punch you. They are trained to swim up from behind and hold you by the neck. I just got punched. Not literally, I was told to not contact someone for 72 hours. In my past I have learned that people abandon you. Everything feels…
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Thank you for your patience
I wrote this in December 2019. I just came across it and felt I should share. I started this blog to communicate who I am and to encourage others that struggle. I hope this post shares both. I am feeling very rational at the moment… Which hasn’t happened in the last few weeks. I struggle with…
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I’m Sorry
I’m sorry for the pain I cause. I’m sorry for making you bleed. I’m sorry I don’t know how to fix it. I’m sorry for making you hide, for loosing time, for forcing you to stay in bed. I’m sorry you don’t like yourself, when you know that people love you and want you around.…
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You Are Amazing
This is for the people that are alone. This is for the people that have to hide their pain. This is for the people that can’t afford medicine. This is for the people that are not able to go to work today. This is for the people that have no hope, but somehow ended up…
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Dear Mental Illness,
You are a bully. Not only do you hurt me, you hurt my family. You make my mom cry, and my friends scared. You keep me away from work, you encourage me to disengage from my life, and tell me to hide from my loved ones. But you have also shown me a few things……
The not so pretty truth 