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Support Team
Recently someone said, you have a support team… it’s different for me. One thing I have learned as a Borderline Personality person is that I cannot be a lifeguard. This is really difficult for me. I do suicide prevention events, I encourage people with the lessons I am learning, I write a blog in hope…
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Manipulation Is The Key To Success
Manipulate is a verb. Here is the definition found by Google Dictionary: handle or control (a tool, mechanism, etc.), typically in a skillful manner. control or influence (a person or situation) cleverly, unfairly, or unscrupulously. Is this something everyone struggles with or is a special gift given to Borderline Personality peeps? There is no way…
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Woke Up
I woke up with the sads. I woke up feeling like I don’t have purpose. I woke up feeling like it doesn’t matter. I woke up thinking does anybody care? I know people care. I know people love me. But have I made a difference in their lives? Like if I disappeared today, what hole…
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You Are My Obsession
Today’s Ugly Truth: I am obsessed. This one is a little scary. Not for me, but probably for you. This morning I read THIS article. What? Really? Now I have to add stocker to my borderline symptoms? I hate this, but the truth is in several past relationships this has been the case. I do…
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Knowledge = Responsibility
Years ago I had this lesson. I was told knowledge equals responsibility. You don’t need to act on knowledge, but at the point of receiving it you now have a choice. You can no longer plead ignorance. A few prevalent example are counselors or clergy. I can confess things that have happened, and they are…
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STOP
The last few weeks I’ve been reading a lot about borderline personality disorder. Most of the articles talk about how hard we are to deal with, and how we hurt the people we love often. Now that I understand why… how do I fix it? I sincerely have no idea how to proceed. Since the…
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This Could be Heavy #2.5
I updated this today 4\14\21. I am reposting this song (Weight of a Man) because I meant it. Joining me for this journey is not easy. This week I have been afraid, sad, manic, euphoric, dangerous, honest… I have discovered some really hard truths about myself and gained more understanding about Borderline Personality Disorder. I…
The not so pretty truth 