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The Games People Play
I am reading this educational book on relationships and attachment… The author took a moment to talk about people that play games in their romantic relationships. Game players… What jerks right? Wait… What did that just say? I am a game player? Yep… Me. A few weeks ago I made a post on Facebook and…
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It Happened Again
It happened… Seemingly out of nowhere… The fear. The panic. The uncontrollable crying. The shaking. The wanting to curl up in a ball and hide. I hate this word. I hate the concitation of it. I hate how it’s improperly used. I hate that I have to use it. TRIGGERED I understand why this word…
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Daydream Believer
Why do you live life in a dream world? To be strong To be brave To hold the fancy of a romantic interest ~ Why do you live a life dreaming so much? To be safe To be protected To survive a world that is harsh ~ Why do you dream knowing dreams don’t happen?…
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More Self-loathing
I want to wrap up in the warm blanket of isolation. I want to sleep in the comfort of ignorance. I want to pretend that someone can love me for me. My dream world collapses around me over and over again. I am not good enough. I am not pretty. I don’t have the right…
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Please STOP
I have written about this skill before, but I need it tonight. STOP It is really “simple” skill… but I dont want to use it… It feels uncomfortable and wrong. It feels like I am giving in… But what I am giving in is exactly where I need to be. S: Stop… Physically stop. Put…
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Just Another Manic Monday?
One of the hardest parts of dealing with mental health issues, is dealing with the aftermath of an episode. Episodes can last a few hours or weeks. During these episodes the brain can get manic (a moment of mental/emotional extreme – high or low). Manic can be really ugly… Some folks go on an extreme…
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Triggered
This writing involves childhood trauma. The title is triggered and that’s what the conversation is about. I do not want to trigger others… If you are reach out for help. You are not alone. Call the Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255 Triggered is such an ugly word. I hate it. It’s become a dirty word in…
The not so pretty truth 