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More Self-loathing
I want to wrap up in the warm blanket of isolation. I want to sleep in the comfort of ignorance. I want to pretend that someone can love me for me. My dream world collapses around me over and over again. I am not good enough. I am not pretty. I don’t have the right…
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That was my point?
The people that I choose, don’t choose me! I throw my accusations at an unprepared friend. Two hours later second guessing myself… When I was so sure. Re-reading the messages exchanged… I said it right. Right? The people that I choose, don’t choose me. To the person that at one time chose me over others.…
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Just Another Manic Monday?
One of the hardest parts of dealing with mental health issues, is dealing with the aftermath of an episode. Episodes can last a few hours or weeks. During these episodes the brain can get manic (a moment of mental/emotional extreme – high or low). Manic can be really ugly… Some folks go on an extreme…
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Sometimes…
Sometimes I want to burn it all. The hurtful remark from family, the heartbreak of lost love, the unanswered text message… I think horrible thoughts of why I am the way I am… And if I just burned it all down I could walk away with a smoke marked smug face, knowing I never have…
The not so pretty truth 