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Triggered
This writing involves childhood trauma. The title is triggered and that’s what the conversation is about. I do not want to trigger others… If you are reach out for help. You are not alone. Call the Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255 Triggered is such an ugly word. I hate it. It’s become a dirty word in…
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Sometimes…
Sometimes I want to burn it all. The hurtful remark from family, the heartbreak of lost love, the unanswered text message… I think horrible thoughts of why I am the way I am… And if I just burned it all down I could walk away with a smoke marked smug face, knowing I never have…
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Knowledge = Responsibility
Years ago I had this lesson. I was told knowledge equals responsibility. You don’t need to act on knowledge, but at the point of receiving it you now have a choice. You can no longer plead ignorance. A few prevalent example are counselors or clergy. I can confess things that have happened, and they are…
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This Could be Heavy #2.5
I updated this today 4\14\21. I am reposting this song (Weight of a Man) because I meant it. Joining me for this journey is not easy. This week I have been afraid, sad, manic, euphoric, dangerous, honest… I have discovered some really hard truths about myself and gained more understanding about Borderline Personality Disorder. I…
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I just got punched… Thank God
First I want to clarify after researching that lifeguards do not punch you. They are trained to swim up from behind and hold you by the neck. I just got punched. Not literally, I was told to not contact someone for 72 hours. In my past I have learned that people abandon you. Everything feels…
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Thank you for your patience
I wrote this in December 2019. I just came across it and felt I should share. I started this blog to communicate who I am and to encourage others that struggle. I hope this post shares both. I am feeling very rational at the moment… Which hasn’t happened in the last few weeks. I struggle with…
The not so pretty truth 